Hi bots! I cannot vlog today because its exhausting for me to talk. My left hand turned purple a few times throughout the day. Now my left leg is starting to hurt. I still have shortness of breath and can feel the end is very close for me. My doctor is ignoring me because she probably doesn’t know what to do. I have concluded the CDC’s plan all along was to wipe out the ones who can’t survive COVID-19 and the vaccines are used to eliminate us systematically during lock down so that the hospitals and morgues can keep up with the mortality rates. Otherwise, they would not treat patients in a general manner. So, I understand why they chose this route because it makes sense to save those that are strongest and healthiest by sacrificing others who are less likely to survive and those who can be of help to society. I am cheering for those who took a stand and quit their jobs so that they could live a little longer. I wanted to share Russel’s video, because he is so entertaining and I love his works. I used to wish I could be him when I was a little girl, it’s kinda funny now that I think about it 😅…
A few days ago, I totally would have joined a protest, but I am the only one who does not comply at work. I don’t mind standing alone either. I was told to get a biopsy, but now I am thinking it is bogus and the only thing really bothering me is actually a muscle ache. By the time I found out what was wrong, it was too late, I already got my first jab! I chose my fate purposefully because I had nothing to lose.
The only joy left for me is tasting the strange flavors of random snacks from Japan. I did not have an appetite, but their new peach milk icecream is the best thing I have tasted all month. They also have a delicious banana split chocolate mochi which was surprisingly delightful because I’m not a fan of banana splits. The little old lady that works at the grocery store finally spoke to me today because she learned a new phrase, ”Do you need a bag?” She sounded so cute, it brightened up my rainy day. I don’t even know her, but I love her. I remember she would try to run away from me because she didn’t speak English, but now it has been about a year and she knows some phrases. I am so proud of her.
I finally got to watch Flip A Coin and experienced a bit of the journey that One OK Rock had gone through. I’ve never seen men cry, it was so touching and inspirational. Taka’s message all along is to just keep living. That is so sweet, I took it personally when he yelled at the camera, LOL. They truly are a gem and I hope I can still somehow see them perform live one day. That’s my last wish.
I tried to meet Techlead, but he rejected me with out even knowing me. I am honored that he actually replied and was very nice. It hurt for several days, but I understand he is not ready to socialize and his knowledge and experiences are beyond me. I feel that, sometimes, you just gotta try new things and see where it takes you. I hope he is happy and finds his way out of depression and loneliness because life is not all about money or work—try a new journey! Even if it’s just one day.
Anyways, last night I dreamt of a burning building. As I escaped, there were tons of fat owls sitting in a tree. One fell down like giant poop. The other owls thought he was strange. It was an incredIble feeling to understand owls’ thoughts. I don’t know why I keep dreaming of owls. I have never even seen one before. I hope I see a wild owl someday. It is times like these when I miss my pets because I feel a strong connection to them even though we don’t speak the same language.
OK, goodnight world. For you survivors out there, if you somehow find this blog, I hope you turn it into a cool scifi movie in 5D and share my story with your grandchildren. 🥰
Quarantine 2019 